At His Bedside

Its hard to explain just how I feel,
This moment seems so unreal.
It was only weeks ago
You were up and on the go.
Seeing you in so much pain and distress,
I pray the Lord would just lead you home,
away from the losing battle inside,
to a place where eternal peace awaits.

Is it July 4th yet?

On June 1st, Jeremy declared that he will be "good from today."

Why from today? I asked

"Because it'll be my birthday in one month's time."

He did try.... but he keeps forgetting and has to be reminded every hour or so.

He has been checking the calendar in the dining room almost everyday. To see if it's July 4th yet.

only 30 more days to go
only 22 more days to go
only 9 days to go
and suddenly today .... oh gosh! .... only 2 more days!!!

And we haven't plan anything for him!! (yes, I feel guilty)

He didn't ask for any party.

I think he's just hoping that when he opens his eyes on his birthday his fairy-godmother would have arrived and left him an enormous present. One that cost RM29xx !!

(we have this tradition in my family where the birthday kid will wake up and see presents on his/her bed. Everyone - mom&dad, bro and sis will give something, small or priceless!)

So today I frantically called on a few of my friends and asked if they will come for a pizza dinner on Saturday. Jeremy's so lucky to have all these sweet aunties who say 'Yes, I'll be there' even tho it's so last minute.

Jeremy!

Ok... it's finally Jeremy's turn. Jeremy..... what can I say? He's the youngest, and even tho we (Anthony and I) have consciously make it a point not to treat him like the 'baby of the family', everyone else does! Kor-Kor Damian, his two big sisters and the maid! As a baby, all he has to do is to open his mouth and scream, and everyone (except the parents- seriously!) jumped to give him whatever he wants.

When he was a wee toddler, whenever he doesn't get what he wants, he'll throw himself on the floor and banged his head against it! My friend KT called him 'head-banger'. I'll rush to pick him up and dump him into a play-pen with soft sides (set away from walls, of course) so that he can continue his tantrums in peace.

Jeremy's really sweet. He'll unexpectedly come up to me, put his arms around me declare his love for me, give me a wet sloppy kiss and then swipe his own lips! He says things like "Do you know why God give us birthdays? Because He can't buy us presents and ask other people to buy for us." (He went pretty deep there).

He really loves playing with Lego. And not just those big mega blocks we all started with. He likes those tiny pieces ones. He'll play till his fingernails are all chipped and broken. He'll be able to go through complicated instructions and put together a set in half the time his father or brother could. Jeremy could also invent his own super-duper spaceship or vehicle using pieces from different sets.

We went to this Lego shop in The Gardens, and he fell in love with everything there. His absolute favourite is the Millenium Falcon (of Star Wars fame) with over 5000 pieces, the largest lego set ever made. It's for age 16+, but Jeremy wanted it. When I told him that it cost almost RM3000, he exclaimed "Wow, so expensive. I need a Fairy Godmother!"

He'll be turning 7 this July. His Godma (AST) is no fairy. She said that she herself needs a Fairy Godmother! Anyone can help find us a fairy?

Stephanie

Stephanie turned 9 in Nov 2008. She was born in USA, and she proudly proclaim herself to be an American. Of course she's a bright and smart girl. She's good at Maths (because it runs in the blood - my whole family is good at Maths!), but she can't seem to pick up BM. She said it's because she's American!

Stephanie (left) and Jo (right). These 2 angels share the same birthday - 28 November!

When she was only 6, Stephanie decided that she wanted to be a 'sister' (a Catholic Nun). She wanted to go to Africa to dig wells for the poor people there and to teach the children how to read. Big dreamer. She did not once change her mind about being a "Sister' for the next few years until last year when election fever hit USA. When Obama won and everyone is talking about the first black President, she declared that she will become the first Chinese-American woman President! She figured that she could be a Nun who's also a President and can help the entire world, not just Africa. Wow!!!! Big Big Big Dreamer!

I'm not going to be the one to tell her that she might not bcome the President of the USA. She'll discover it on her own soon enough. Why not let her enjoy her dreams a little longer? But one thing I'm sure - she'll impact the world in her own way.

There are just so many people so eager to burst that bubble of enthusiastic confidence and expectation. So many people who can't stand it if someone has a ig dream, because they have lost the ability to dream themselves.

She once asked me, "Why are there so many people who are impositive?"

"Impositive? What's Impositive?" I asked

"You know - positive / impositive, possible / impossible"

Oh I see! How clever.